...My Life...

Don't use this much, but oh well.

Finished:
Death Note

Started:
Naruto (need to finish, up @ 162)
Naruto Shippuden (started a while back and continuing)
Bleach (started a while back and continuing)
Hellsing
Beck(!)

Soon:
Shining Tears X Wind
Excel Saga(maybe?)
Neon Genesis Evangelion

Finished Chobits and started Death Note! YAYQ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BLAX

Merry Christmas everyone ^^. Happy Holidays to everyone else lol <_<. It's kind of 3:30am so I don't feel like saying too much XD. -[b]

Ooo I just finished the anime Samurai7! It was aweseome^^!!!

I started watching it around....October? Lol yea I take forever watching animes <_<. Man so many people had to die T_T. I already one was going to die but I didn't think that many would =(. But still it was a pretty kick @ss anime. Humm.... what will I watch now? -[b]

Well I finally have decided what I truly want for Christmas. No, it's not any material possessions. Not that I wouldn't mind them, but this year they're not on the height anymore. All I want for Christmas is (not in any order):


-Happiness...Joy...and Love for All of my Friends and Family Members.

-To wish my grandpa..., where ever he may be now, happiness and good fortune.

-And finally,...someone to hold.....





-[b]

Wow, what a hectic week its been. Everything doesn't ever seem to go right this week. Its so hard to talk about it to. I know I sound a little pathetic but it true if its true.

Well lets start off how it started...

...On tuesday after getting back from school, I heard the news...

...My Grandfather was in the hospital...He was really sick...so sick that he barely had the energy to even speak. This really was upsetting because he had just recovered from stomach cancer. Just a couple months ago he was diagnosed with it. He fought through it and was able to make it through the operation. This left him horribly weak and frail. He had lost weight so much that he WAS skin and bones. But that didn't stop his spirit. He never gave up. He even went to my home country to help give to the poor. I mean that IS the heart of generosity and selflessness right there. I'm probably too stupid to even think of that if I went through I such events...

...But soon he was sent to the hospital. It was on monday or tuesday I believe. We learned that his kidneys were failing...and shutting down now.


I...basically cried all night from this. Yea, people say men are not suppose to cry, but I can barely give a crap about that opinion. Wednesday I tried to hide this all from my friends. I was barely able to make it out of it. I'm disappointed in myself because of that. I should have to told them or something.


On the Day Of Thanks we planned to go visit my Grandfather. The weather was devastating that day. Strong winds and pouring rained slowed us down a lot.

As we walked through the long corridors of the hospital, my heart raced...

...then....in the room...laid.



..I can barely describe what I felt and still what I'm feeling like right now...



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...ok I'm just going to go sleep now. I can't do this anymore.


goodnight

...The world weeps now...and so do I...

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYY!!! I got FFXII!!! WOOOH!!!! Not too far in it though lol >->, but that'll change soon as long as I have enough time. Playing FFXII has also taken almost 2 days of playing Flyff. Its a killer and such a blessing at the same time. I hope my guild doesn't miss me too much XD.

Well anyways, time sure flys by quick. There are so many things I want to do and I want to see, but time is always ending too quick for me. Oh but it'll slow down tomorrow. I have TWO HOURS OF GEOMETRY T_T. Its first thing in the morning so I'll deffinetely fall asleep somewhere during those 2 hours lol.

OMG ITS COMING OUT TOMORROW! TOMORROW! TOMORROW! TOMORROW! But I can't get it T_T. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Oh well I have the weekend to get the cd. Anyways I already have the +44 cd but I want the REAL copy lol. Not the entire album that I got from the internet, I want the real thing. Also, what kind of fan would I be if I didn't get the REAL cd? Lol XD.

Night all, school tomorrow and then off to play FFXII. Hehe.

-budah

P.S. 'I Miss You'

OMG, I really want FFXII NOW! 'Someone' just showed me the game and now I MUST GET IT! I haven't played ANY games in...about 2 and a 1/2 months so I'm like dying now! T_T. Hopefully I can get it thing weekend...

...Anyways, I haven't posted in a long time. Been kinda busy. I've also been watching the anime Samurai7 which is totally kick @$$! Umm... Oh yea I've been playing Flyff like mad when I get the chance, Level 63! Yay^^! Soon I'll be able to AOE!

*SIGH*

Well I don't what else to say, not really in the mood to talk so byebye.

-(confused)<---budah


P.S. OMG +44 CD IS IN A WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *Save up MORE money*

Evening Rockers, I'm actually in a good mood today.

I was just playing FlyFF and actually having a good time. I've been busy training and doing other junk so I haven't had time to hang around doing nothing lol. A friend of mines in trying to make a guild and we spent one whole hour trying to think of a name LMAO! In the end we kinda went back to the first name <_<. The problem is that we still might try to make up a name again tomarrow... oh boy^^. In other news I am once again looking for a new anime to watch. Yea, I'm a slow watcher lol. I would be re-watching Cowboy Bebop since I never saw the entire series. But unfortunately they took off YouTube T-T. I probably will start to watch Samurai7 since my cousin said it was a really good anime. Oh well good night all, -Budah p.s. stupid update journal button XD

Evening Rockers, I'm actually in a good mood today.

I was just playing FlyFF and actually having a good time. I've been busy training and doing other junk so I haven't had time to hang around doing nothing lol. A friend of mines in trying to make a guild and we spent one whole hour trying to think of a name LMAO! In the end we kinda went back to the first name <_<. The problem is that we still might try to make up a name again tomarrow... oh boy^^. In other news I am once again looking for a new anime to watch. Yea, I'm a slow watcher lol. I would be re-watching Cowboy Bebop since I never saw the entire series. But unfortunately they took off YouTube T-T. I probably will start to watch Samurai7 since my cousin said it was a really good anime. Oh well good night all, -Budah

Evening Rockers, I'm actually in a good mood today.

I was just playing FlyFF and actually having a good time. I've been busy training and doing other junk so I haven't had time to hang around doing nothing lol. A friend of mines in trying to make a guild and we spent one whole hour trying to think of a name LMAO! In the end we kinda went back to the first name <_<. The problem is that we still might try to make up a name agin tomarrow... oh boy^^. In other news I am once again looking for a new anime to watch. Yea, I'm a slow watcher lol. I would be re-watching Cowboy Bebop since I never saw the entire series. But unfortunately they took off YouTube T-T. I probably will start to watch Samurai7 since my cousin said it was a really good anime. Oh well good night all, -Budah

Hey everyone, well lets see whats in the bag today...

Well I just started to replay step again! I stopped for close to two weeks and it really hasn't helped my stepping skills lol. But I didn't do that bad. I could play about a 9 now on hard XD.

Oh yea I just finished reading one of my good friend's story. She kinda made it yaoi and just a little bit torture, yea just a little lol (whips, salt, etc. 0.0). It was too softcore though XD.

I <3 someone

night night,

-budah

Hey everyone, well lets see whats in the bag today...

Well I just started to replay step again! I stopped for close to two weeks and it really hasn't helped my stepping skills lol. But I didn't do that bad. I could play about a 9 now on hard XD.

Evening everyone... or should I say morning XD. Well I had a pretty kool sunday today:

Today I went over Stinky Tom's (yes stinky tom XD) house today. JP also came over. We finally destroyed the painting I made that I received a bad grade on! WOOOOH!!! It was a lot easier that I thought lol. After that we went to some wacky corn maze that we went to last year. It took around 2 hours last year and this year it took less than an hour and a half. We kinda killed each other with the corn and the corn stalks inside lol XD.

After that we sat around for like 5 hours playing video games and eating lol.

Oh yea! Plus 44 released their new video last week! It for When Your Heart Stops Beating. Its such a kool video! I love how they go back and forth and back and forth making the band members disappear and reappear! It kinds makes me dizzy 0.0




Man I'm watching Flight 93 again right now. It such a sad video =(. We all know whats going to happen but we don't want it to happen, even thought it did happen. Sometimes I don't get this world. Too much pain, suffering, greed, selfishness, and evil. Why can't we just get along =(.

RIP victims of 9/11

Good night everyone,
-Budah

P.S The moon is so beautiful right now. So bright and shiny 0.0, must touch... Sometimes I can't believe we on Earth all live under the same night sky. I really miss someone right now...

Man I've been soooo busy with school this week, around 3-4 tests/quizzes and tons of homework! Well lets see what I have to say from this week:

Oh yea! They finally changed the opening to the American Naruto! YAY FOR HARUKA KANATA AND AJIKAN!^^

Ummm...

I started playing Rappelz recently. Its another MMORPG by GPotato. I really like the graphics and the character design of the game. The characters don't look like kids anymore like they did in FlyFF. You are also able to raise pets/monsters so that's pretty kool. The things that I don't like about it is that it kind of takes long for traveling and leveling is harder than FlyFF. Oh yea I play FlyFF too lol XD.

Ummm...

Well for my drumming classes I just finished my second tape today and I'll be moving onto Blink 182's Greatest Hits! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH!XD I can't wait until next week!

Ummm...

Its been a long week but I don't know what to say lol...

Ummm...

Well that's all I can think of I'm getting tired of thinking on the weekends, good night too all.

-Budah^^

Well so today I was kinda busy. The highlight of the day was going to the movies with the fam. and watching Jet Li's Fearless. It was a pretty kool and sad movie. The only problem I had with it was that they subbed the whole movie except when some people spoke some english. So the whole movie was basically all in chinese.

Also today I went to EB Games. I tried finding Final Fantasy 7, 8, 9, and 10, but unfortunately they didn't have any of it T-T. I never played FF 7, 8, and 9 before and I wanted to see how good they are. I know they've had awesome reviews and I heard so much good things about them. I've played 10 before but I was never given the time to beat it. I got pretty far in it, but one day I let my cousin borrow it and he kinda sold it for money -.-. What a cousin huh? I really hope they'll have those games in Wal-Mart and/or Toys 'R' Us lol. It'll probably be a miracle if they do, but all I can do is pray.

Oh yea, I saw awesome trailers of movies that I want to watch soon. They're 'The Chainsaw Massacre The Beginning' and 'Saw 3'. 'The Beginning' is coming out on Oct. 6th and 'Saw 3' will be out on the 27th. Hopefully I'll be able to see it with a couple of my friends or someone special...yea...I like someone right now...like=love...I MIGHT explain it later on. Oh well forget about that part, night folks.

-Budah

Well I just got this recently so I'll have to work with it and fix it up to my liking.

I guess I'll use livejournal as a journal for myself. Put down ideas, how I'm feeling, and what not. I'll probably won't get any visitors but I don't really care. This will be my online sactuary when I'm bored lol.

I do have a myspace, but I still am going to use this for private matters. Just a way to get away from the real world and stuff.





O wait I still haven't introduced myself!

Well to start things off almost all my friends call me budah. Yes budah, not buddah, I'm budah, spelled budah, not buddah, and sorry I'm not fat or bald thats enlightened buddah, cuz i'm budah, not buddah buddah, just budah(confused yet?). Its kind of a long story...no wait actually its not even that long, it actually happened all in a couple school weeks or less, but I guess I'll leave that story to another day.^^

<-< Anyways I have the bestest friends in the whole world, but not going to name any cuz I don't want to get raped or whatever lol. They're always there for me and are people that I can always relate to. They are basicly what I live for. My family is also another part in my heart. They are the ones that have protected me and made me the way I am today. The problem is I don't always show them much gratitude cuz I suck at life, but I will someday.

Well I guess I'm starting to run out of thing to say (yea already) so I'll bid my farwell.

-Budah(aka nathan[o yea i forgot to say my real name is nathan if anyone wanted to know])